reflections...

the tennis was just incredible. i can't believe federer was in tears at the end - what an emotional history-making moment!

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it's been 2 days since coming back from KYLC. after a long month where most of my friends have been away either overseas, on beach mission and KYC - the holidays are now drawing to a close and a new chapter of my life is waiting to begin.

already i find i'm struggling to live with that focus on eternity that i had at KYLC. already i miss being constantly challenged and encouraged by the Word, i miss the bond of friendship and fellowship, i miss having all my fears and pretences blown away by the power of the Gospel and being powerfully and humbly brought on my knees in light of God's glory.

it's a very stark contrast to what i know i will be facing this year. not only pressures of yr 12 - but i know i will feel lonely and misplaced in both sunday school and eyf as friends move on and groups change and shift. no longer will i go primarily for my own benefit and learning, but as a sacrifice on my part to use the time i have there to serve others.

it's so hard to stay content and joyful as i look ahead into this year with the utter certainty of hard times, difficult times, painful times coming up. i don't think i'm being overly dramatic - i'm just facing my reality.

and yet...

through Christ i have been raised from being dry bones to being alive; filled with God's Spirit. through Christ i have the hope of eternal life, of being forever with God and forever dwelling in His presence, praising him with brothers and sisters from all around the world. through Christ i have been set free from the clutches of sin and walk as a forgiven child of God - continually being transformed by the power of His Word - all for His glory!

i know God is in control of my life ... all I have to do is trust Him and walk beside Him knowing that He is my Good Shepherd.

in the words of Switchfoot- "The Setting Sun" from their album "Nothing is Sound"

My hope runs underneath it all the day that I'll be home
It won't be long, I belong somewhere past this setting sun
Finally free, finally strong, somewhere back where I belong...

Pray that I may live my life on this earth reflecting where I truly belong - in heaven for all eternity to the honour and glory of the One who gave his life for me.