relationships

The theme for EYF tonight was relationships. Over this year, I think the person I've spent the most time with is myself. However spending more time with myself doesn't mean I've come to know myself better! On the contrary it seems the more I learn about myself, the more doors it leads to that are yet undiscovered. (sigh... talk about inner journey! ><)

But seriously, I feel like this year I've become more reflective, more introspective, or if you look at it from the other side; self-absorbed. Which altogether may not be totally healthy.

So yeah; relationships. Ironic how during supper everyone is so segregated into their own little groups making light conversation, filling the hall with laughter and merriment.... what if we took away the facade and the masks... what would we find? Lost and lonely and weary souls who are seeking for something to satisfy them... but not quite finding it.

It's not the time of the month, but perhaps it's the time of the year that's causing me to doubt, to question the truth of what I know, of what I've been told; and to look for something more lasting. How to tell between truth and lies? between fantasy and reality? between true vibrant life and this shadowy imitation?