ppl from the past...

strange... in the space of 3 days i've met 2 people i once knew in primary school. After 5 years with no contact... suddenly i see them again...

it's always weird and slightly awkward... we ask each other how's school and what subjects we're doing... laugh a bit... then there's that horrible silence... and i look around trying hard to think of another question to ask... and eventually one of us has to go; and we both say it was good to catch up, and we'll see you later... knowing that we'll probably not see them again for another 5 years.

i always feel strange after talking to someone from primary school... just reflecting on how much everyone has changed... how much I've changed especially.

i was a bit of a brat in primary school...arrogant, proud, selfish...mean and vindictive too...bitter at my parents for changing churches, and starting at a new school in the same year- didn't have any friends except for one... but she became friends with another girl... i kept switching groups all year, and i compromised my integrity in order to fit in. i still remember in yr5 it wouldn't be uncommon to hear me swear quite frequently at school, i was rude, i gossiped abt ppl, talked behind other's backs, played nasty tricks on those i didn't like... and through it all, i was also a hypocrite. i was "christian".

But thanks be to God and his amazing grace! a fresh start at Abbotsleigh and going to EYF was what changed me. i accepted that i wasn't going back to my old church, and i moved on so that i was able to make new friends... school provided me with an opportunity to stop hanging around with the 'popular' group and instead find ppl who i could be comfortable with... and look at me now! 5 years on...God has really worked in my life and changed me...i still have many many faults and weaknesses, but with God's help i'm trying to improve, trying to live my life in a way that pleases Him.

But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things - and the things that are not - to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord." 1 Cor 1:27-31